why i am attracted to this man?

dear love,

i have a weird confession. i am really attracted to this late-forty-year-old man i work with in the nicu. his hair goes down past his shoulders, and is curly, and he gels it. he wears one of those little hats. he also has a beard! i don't understand this attraction, but i'm pretty sure it has something to do with how nice he is. he always works in night shift and every time i come in, he is always chatting it up with one of the nurses, helping her out with either a serious life problem, or with taking care of one of her babies. he always stays after his shift ends to help people who are scrambling to get feedings in, meds, or just finishing their charting. AND, he actually acknowledges my presence, and ALWAYS smiles at me. there's something about his voice too. scratchy and raspy. LOVE IT! weird, i know, but i just had to get this out there. i guess attractiveness doesn't come in only one form for me. that is all. have a nice day.