this is why being home is awesome

dear love,

i just need to try to explain why my sister is the most hilarious person ever. i've only been home for 4 hours and i'm already re-amazed at how funny the woman is. here we go with a list shall we?

• she is recently obsessed with mario on my dad's wii. she bought the game 3 days ago is is already on the 8th world. quote just now, "i'm about to quit, dude. this is seriously the hardest level i've ever even seen!" and then, "nooooooo i need that mushroom!" "i'm just going to jam this level out...just JAM!"
• i can use this weird language with her and she understands me even though a normal person would have no idea what is going on.
• all night she has had this throat issue where every two minutes she gags a little. and then he voice changes to this kermit voice randomly.
• certain things about who i am can only come out around that girl. we're a bunch of weirdos and it just feels like home.

announcements

dear love,

just a few things i need to say:

• i have written my very first song.
• to every man in the whole world: man up.
• i have one more final left until freedom
• i haven't done a single thing christmas shopping-wise.

that is all.

in love with this song

yay for happy songs

shower epiphany phenomenon

dear love,

i have this weird phenomenon in my life and it happens in the shower. i can't even tell you how many times i'm just taking a shower, minding my own business, and all of a sudden i have the answer to a question i've been wondering about for weeks. i've thought long and hard as to why this even happens and i think i have the answer.

all day long i run from thing to thing. work, school, studying, eating, gym, friends, the boy, church, etc. i rarely have time where my mind can just shut off. in the shower, i've created this habit of thinking of absolutely nothing while i'm in there. they always tell you in yoga to clear your mind and i think the more you think about clearing your mind, the less you do it. the only time i've really been able to have a mind without a million things running through it is in the shower. so that's where i have these amazing realizations.

Here are some examples of things i've realized in the shower:

• one time i realized that a guy i had been dating was TOTALLY two-timing me
• i realized i had to quit my job at the hospital
• great ideas for dinner group have come to me in this manner
• something really personal, let's just say i knew something was going to happen before it did...weird
• i knew that this one person just needed a friend.
• triple date ideas :)
• i've remembered sooo many friends' birthdays the day of

so there you have it. if you ever need an answer to a question, try a shower!

a poem from the past

dear love,

this is a poem my little 9-year-old sister wrote to me last year for my birthday. she was 8 at the time and i think it's pure genius.

I Love You the Yellowest

I love you

love you the wing of a duck,

the song of a bird,

the heat of a hug,

the gold in treasure,

I love you the yellowest

hey, things work out

dear love,

i just wanted to remind you that sometimes you stress and then sometimes everything just works out. it probably won't work out exactly the way you think it will, but it will. then you will look like this. (happy happy happy)

my roommates

dear love,

i just want the world to know that i probably have the most wonderful roommates in the whole world. it's pretty amazing that we can't even go to bed at night because we're so excited to talk about all the wonderful and hard things in life.

one of them has been through it all with me. she was my very first roommate when i moved here and i have learned more from here than i could even begin to write down. there have been countless times she has given words of encouragement, or even just a knowing look that tells me that she understands and that she cares. my favorite thing about her is how big her heart is—she loves everyone and is always pleasant and wonderful. she is the definition of lovely.

then there's the other one...yeah, her. we decided today that we have the most sarcastic relationship in the world. but even with all the fake fighting and constant banter, we still sit down at night and talk about all the things that matter to us. we just get each other. she looks out for me and i for her and if anyone tries to mess i would kill them. (she also really loves murder). i have learned to pay attention to the small things and to see people in a different way because she taught me how. she is the definition of wonderful.