FEMULLET

dear love,

it was a normal thursday afternoon. i had just gotten out of my clinical class and i was on my way outside for my biweekly 30 minute people watching session. the next thing i knew, i was staring at one of the most amazing sights i have ever seen. this fe-mullet.

at first i panicked because i knew i didn't have my camera with me. but then i remembered that my phone has a camera on it, so the next thing i knew i was on my way, phone in hand, ready for some serious stalking. i decided it was too weird to hold my phone up so that she could see me taking the picture, so i took a risk and held the phone at my leg and took the creeper shot that way, hoping i would have her in the frame. i looked at the picture, overjoyed with the results. not only did i get the full body shot, BUT the wind picked up right at the moment i snapped it. e-p-i-c.

i laughed literally for a half hour straight. by myself. i had to pretend i was on the phone so that people wouldn't stare.

some lingering questions:

• who cuts hair such as this?
• how do i become that awesome?
• how is not an "extreme hairstyle" that would usually be banned from BYU campus?
• when she wakes up in the morning, does she really think, "yep!! i'm looking good!" ???
• how do i become her friend?

i've decided to frame this picture and put it up on my wall next to the other photo i have. (the really crazy man and wife(?) that hangs proudly in our living room). because my lovely roommates always tell people that those crazy-looking people are my parents, a friend suggested that i tell people that this mullet woman is my twin sister who plays softball.

this one's for you, cort. "WHAT A PLAY!!!"

a realization resolution

dear love,

it's been a really long time since i last wrote on my blog. here goes my best attempt.

something that's been on my mind lately is understanding why i have such a hard time trying new things. examples: my first time i tried playing golf, i was in tears by the end of the second hole. i kept swinging and missing and was sooooo frustrated. i was scared to even try and then when i wasn't good, i just wanted to give up. i guess i just want to be good at everything i do. another example is my dance class. i am absolutely terrified of the entire scene—it's completely uncomfortable. first of all, you have to ask people to dance and hold sweaty guys' hands, and you have to deal with the people who have been dancing their entire lives and are waaaay better than you and intimidating. these two examples are things that i have actually tried to do after much self-convincing, but it makes me REALLY uncomfortable.

so here's the catch. i've realized that if i could boil it all down to one thing it would be fear. i'm flat-out scared to try new things. i'm scared i will look dumb, not be able to do it, or just fail altogether. this realization was a surprising one for me because i don't see myself as really being scared of stuff like that. but i think that there's definitely an element of fear related to the things i never actually try.

i'm going to fix this. i'm telling myself that i am going to try new things and recognize that i might be scared but i'm going to do it anyway. i heard this great quote once: "if you want things to happen that have never happened before you have to do things you've never done before." i'm going to do things i've never done before and i'm not going to let fear get in my way. and i'm going to be awesome. done and done.

love love love.

dear love,

all you need is love. that's what they say.

my little talents

dear love,

you know how the first day of the semester teachers will ask the class to go around and say their name, where they're from, and something interesting about them? well, it's caused me to really dig deep, in heartfelt contemplation about what is interesting about ME?

here are some answers i've come up with:

first, i can make a really cool face. it looks a little something like this

second, i am probably the best at knowing which size tupperware to use for leftovers. this was

especially obvious when i was home for the holidays. my family used this skill of mine many times after the mounds of food we would eat.

and last but not least, i have another talent. it's something i used to brag about a lot back in the day, but i've had fewer and fewer chances to show this one off due to cell phones. ladies and gentlemen, i am here to announce that i am REALLY good at memorizing phone numbers. this used to be a huge inside joke with me and my high school boyfriend so if he were to ever read this, he would chuckle.

that is all. what are your secret little talents?

merry christmas!

favorite christmas song = oh holy night

this is why being home is awesome

dear love,

i just need to try to explain why my sister is the most hilarious person ever. i've only been home for 4 hours and i'm already re-amazed at how funny the woman is. here we go with a list shall we?

• she is recently obsessed with mario on my dad's wii. she bought the game 3 days ago is is already on the 8th world. quote just now, "i'm about to quit, dude. this is seriously the hardest level i've ever even seen!" and then, "nooooooo i need that mushroom!" "i'm just going to jam this level out...just JAM!"
• i can use this weird language with her and she understands me even though a normal person would have no idea what is going on.
• all night she has had this throat issue where every two minutes she gags a little. and then he voice changes to this kermit voice randomly.
• certain things about who i am can only come out around that girl. we're a bunch of weirdos and it just feels like home.

announcements

dear love,

just a few things i need to say:

• i have written my very first song.
• to every man in the whole world: man up.
• i have one more final left until freedom
• i haven't done a single thing christmas shopping-wise.

that is all.